Confession #10- "Lord, I Praise You For The Storm"...
Long time, no blog. The past few weeks this Conservative has been ultra busy with the election & having more surgeries... To update you- I have had a few rough weeks. On November 13, I'll be having my 12th surgery :/ It was even more disheartening when I found out that my country decided to have 4 more years of big spending, big government, & big broken promises (but that will the the subject of my next post)...
For now, I have a question for you- if you had the opportunity, would you ever go back in time to change something? Maybe a family member that has cancer could have gone to the doctor a little sooner? Maybe you would have avoided that wreck, if you were just a little bit earlier? Maybe you have strayed so far away from God, you'd change taking that first step on the wrong path? I think it's safe to say we've all asked ourselves "Well, if I had that to do over, what would I do differently? What would I change?". What got me thinking about that question was when I was spending my alone time with God. I kind of thought, "Gosh, if I could have just gone back and done something differently... Maybe I'd be better by now?" Then I thought, "Well, if I could go back, would I?"
At first I thought that was a dumb question... DUH, I'd go back!!! But then I started pondering about looking at this from God's point of view- the "big picture". From day one, I've wanted to get to the point of being able to say "Lord, I praise You for the storm", AND actually mean it! I started recalling every nurse I've come in contact with... most of them have just become part of our extended family! Over the past dozen surgeries, I've developed new role models. Not wealthy actors or politicians- but hard working doctors & nurse practitioners that glow with compassion. For 2.5 years, I've been able to see who I can depend upon. I have been able to see who would stand by my side & who would slowly drift away from my life. Without this "storm", I wouldn't have been able to meet a community of Facebook & Twitter friends that have gone above & beyond to illustrate their support of me! But most of all, through this torture, 2 Corinthians 12:9-10 has come to life for me- "But he said to me, "My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness." Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ's power may rest on me. That is why, for Christ's sake, I delight in weaknesses, in insults, in hardships, in persecutions, in difficulties. For when I am weak, then I am strong." Before this valley I had a Savior, but because of this I have gained a Lord that I can fully depend upon!
Do I wish my wound wouldn't hurt? DUH!
Do I wish my 12th surgery would be my last? Yep.
Do I wish it would go away? YES!!!
Do I wish I could move on with my life? Yeah.
Do I wish this would have never happened? NOPE!
Why? Because I am not who I used to be... When going through trials, we can get better or we can get bitter, but the decision is ours! However, as for me, "Lord, I praise You for the storm!"
"Sometimes the littlest thing in life changes something forever, and there will be times when you wish you can go back to how things used to be but you just can't because you have changed so much." -Anonymous
Sincerely,
College Conservative
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