Confession #3- Sometimes I just don't understand...
This blog post is especially hard for me to write... Mainly because I don't want to accept what I am writing. So I'll just cut to the chase...
Today, I went back to Vanderbilt to check up on my chronic wound (for more details, see my first post)... It appears that I will have to have a fifth surgery, unless God intervenes. I ask that you help my family & I pray as we figure out the appropriate decision on where to have the surgery, who to perform the surgery, & what surgical procedure to go with.
I have a lot of questions for God & I am quite disappointed & broken-hearted, but I am confident He is faithful! "He heals the broken hearted & binds up their wounds" -Psalms 147:3
Sincerely,
College Conservative
Friday, July 27, 2012
Wednesday, July 25, 2012
Confession #2- I am a big fan...
Confession #2- 5 things I am a big fan of...
1. REESE'S CUPS- This really doesn't need an explanation!!! But I love to eat all the chocolate off around the edges of the candy & then eat the peanut butter part *yummmmm*
2. FEMALE POLITICIANS- I can not sing enough praise to female conservative leaders. Because I was raised by a single mom, she always made me have a very high amount of respect for females in authority! A few of my favorites are: Michele Bachmann, Kristi Noem, & Sarah Palin. Ok, maybe it is true that I have a small political crush on them... but wether you agree with them or not, you have to admit that all three are strong, bold leaders. I was a Bachmann supporter ever since she had began her run for the Presidency. She blew me away with her knowledge of the Constitution & love for America! The other day I was tweeting my support of Bachmann with the hashtag #IStandWithBachmann... A guy responds and said that if we stand with Bachmann we "deserved and should be shot". It is so disheartening to see some people be so insensitive toward violence that they would threaten to do this, especially with the incident in Aurora. Which brings me to number 3...
3. PRAYER- I am a big fan of prayer. I have a few friends whom I feel like I could call on day or night- but at some point we are all going to disappoint each other! And I am so thankful that I have a Savior whom I can call out to whenever I need Him! I have a 24/7 friend who is never going to leave me or forsake me. Over the last almost 3 years, if there is anything I have learned- it's to pray! I believe that prayer changes things & that God hears every prayer, even when we don't have the words to say them!
4. PRAISE- Even though I am a "big fan" of something, doesn't mean I am an expert. I fall short many times when it comes to prayer & praise. I believe that we are supposed to "praise Him in the storm". There are so many times that I have gotten frustrated with God, because He won't heal me & because I am missing out on being a "college kid". But I am to the point where I praise God for what he is going to do! I know that I may not be healed today, or tomorrow, or for 3 more years from now- but one day after a while God is going to see fit to heal my brokenness & I give Him the praise! We have so much to be grateful for, and I know I forget to give God the glory for everything He has done. I don't know of anybody else who would send their son to die for me while I was still a sinner. Praise God!
5. RANDOM ACTS OF KINDNESS- I love the feeling I get when I help someone! Even if it is just opening the door for the stranger behind me at the mall, I believe that can impact someone's life. The fact of the matter is, we have no idea what each other are going through. And I think we need to help carry each other's burdens!!! So I want to encourage myself & you to help carry someone else's burden. We can buy the person behind us' coffee when we run through the drive thru at breakfast. We can pay for someone's dinner who might be having a financial problem. Or we could just give someone a compliment- and that's always free.
***I hope this blog has blessed you in some way. I want you to know that I am praying for every person who ever reads my blog! "He heals the broken hearted and binds up their wounds" Psalms 147:3***
Sincerely,
College Conservative
1. REESE'S CUPS- This really doesn't need an explanation!!! But I love to eat all the chocolate off around the edges of the candy & then eat the peanut butter part *yummmmm*
2. FEMALE POLITICIANS- I can not sing enough praise to female conservative leaders. Because I was raised by a single mom, she always made me have a very high amount of respect for females in authority! A few of my favorites are: Michele Bachmann, Kristi Noem, & Sarah Palin. Ok, maybe it is true that I have a small political crush on them... but wether you agree with them or not, you have to admit that all three are strong, bold leaders. I was a Bachmann supporter ever since she had began her run for the Presidency. She blew me away with her knowledge of the Constitution & love for America! The other day I was tweeting my support of Bachmann with the hashtag #IStandWithBachmann... A guy responds and said that if we stand with Bachmann we "deserved and should be shot". It is so disheartening to see some people be so insensitive toward violence that they would threaten to do this, especially with the incident in Aurora. Which brings me to number 3...
3. PRAYER- I am a big fan of prayer. I have a few friends whom I feel like I could call on day or night- but at some point we are all going to disappoint each other! And I am so thankful that I have a Savior whom I can call out to whenever I need Him! I have a 24/7 friend who is never going to leave me or forsake me. Over the last almost 3 years, if there is anything I have learned- it's to pray! I believe that prayer changes things & that God hears every prayer, even when we don't have the words to say them!
4. PRAISE- Even though I am a "big fan" of something, doesn't mean I am an expert. I fall short many times when it comes to prayer & praise. I believe that we are supposed to "praise Him in the storm". There are so many times that I have gotten frustrated with God, because He won't heal me & because I am missing out on being a "college kid". But I am to the point where I praise God for what he is going to do! I know that I may not be healed today, or tomorrow, or for 3 more years from now- but one day after a while God is going to see fit to heal my brokenness & I give Him the praise! We have so much to be grateful for, and I know I forget to give God the glory for everything He has done. I don't know of anybody else who would send their son to die for me while I was still a sinner. Praise God!
5. RANDOM ACTS OF KINDNESS- I love the feeling I get when I help someone! Even if it is just opening the door for the stranger behind me at the mall, I believe that can impact someone's life. The fact of the matter is, we have no idea what each other are going through. And I think we need to help carry each other's burdens!!! So I want to encourage myself & you to help carry someone else's burden. We can buy the person behind us' coffee when we run through the drive thru at breakfast. We can pay for someone's dinner who might be having a financial problem. Or we could just give someone a compliment- and that's always free.
***I hope this blog has blessed you in some way. I want you to know that I am praying for every person who ever reads my blog! "He heals the broken hearted and binds up their wounds" Psalms 147:3***
Sincerely,
College Conservative
Monday, July 23, 2012
Confession #1- "The Broken Ones"
For my first confession, I wanted to be able to let you all get to know me more. So for my first post, your gonna find out my biggest trial & burden.
When I was a senior in high school I started developing Pilonidal Disease (which is a chronic/recurring wound from a Pilonidal Cyst on my tail bone). I'm sure I'll have a lot of posts on this, as I travel on this slow road to recovery. It has been almost 3 years since I've been "normal". I have forgotten what it's like to go with my family to Olive Garden and to be able to sit comfortably. My wound has been packed over 800 times (usually my wound care is done nightly). My wound care is extremely painful & has caused me to develop a PTSD (post-traumatic stress disorder) type condition, that makes me relive the pain routinely. I go to the wound doctor once-a-week and I go to Vanderbilt University once-a-month for wound treatments. I have had 4 surgeries, but they are yet to figure out why I am not healing... Please don't get confused, I am not telling you this for pity. I want to tell you this to empower you. I have learned so much about the love of God over the past couple of years. My pastor always asks "what if all you had today was what you thanked God for yesterday?". I praise God for His willingness- not to "remove the thorn from my side" but for holding my hand while I walk through the pain. As I write posts, I also want to encourage you. By no means, am I a perfect person, but I believe that my "weakness is made perfect" with God's power. I want to encourage you to be the person God wants you to be, and I want to encourage you to fight for the issues you are passionate about!
Lauren Talley sings a song called "The Broken Ones". I strongly suggest you YouTube or iTunes this song! It talks about a girl who finds a raggedy Raggedy Ann doll in the neighbors garbage. It's missing a button eye and one of its arms is hanging by a tread. But she takes the doll and tosses it on her bed with the rest of her collection, because she "loves the broken ones". I am so glad God sees fit to use people like me, a broken one, to try to help others. So "Confessions of a College Conservative" is going to consist of a lot of politics, but I also want to encourage you to fight... because no matter what, God can use "the broken ones"!
Sincerely,
College Conservative
When I was a senior in high school I started developing Pilonidal Disease (which is a chronic/recurring wound from a Pilonidal Cyst on my tail bone). I'm sure I'll have a lot of posts on this, as I travel on this slow road to recovery. It has been almost 3 years since I've been "normal". I have forgotten what it's like to go with my family to Olive Garden and to be able to sit comfortably. My wound has been packed over 800 times (usually my wound care is done nightly). My wound care is extremely painful & has caused me to develop a PTSD (post-traumatic stress disorder) type condition, that makes me relive the pain routinely. I go to the wound doctor once-a-week and I go to Vanderbilt University once-a-month for wound treatments. I have had 4 surgeries, but they are yet to figure out why I am not healing... Please don't get confused, I am not telling you this for pity. I want to tell you this to empower you. I have learned so much about the love of God over the past couple of years. My pastor always asks "what if all you had today was what you thanked God for yesterday?". I praise God for His willingness- not to "remove the thorn from my side" but for holding my hand while I walk through the pain. As I write posts, I also want to encourage you. By no means, am I a perfect person, but I believe that my "weakness is made perfect" with God's power. I want to encourage you to be the person God wants you to be, and I want to encourage you to fight for the issues you are passionate about!
Lauren Talley sings a song called "The Broken Ones". I strongly suggest you YouTube or iTunes this song! It talks about a girl who finds a raggedy Raggedy Ann doll in the neighbors garbage. It's missing a button eye and one of its arms is hanging by a tread. But she takes the doll and tosses it on her bed with the rest of her collection, because she "loves the broken ones". I am so glad God sees fit to use people like me, a broken one, to try to help others. So "Confessions of a College Conservative" is going to consist of a lot of politics, but I also want to encourage you to fight... because no matter what, God can use "the broken ones"!
Sincerely,
College Conservative
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